cutting

is cutting wrong when it helps you deal? Is it wrong when it helps you stay on this earth another day?

I no my cutting hurts the people who care about me but what they dont seem to get is that it helps me way more then they no.

I see a therapist once every week and she always tells me pop a rubber band. It helps to a point. But i dont get the same feeling.

I dont cut to die and i dont cut every day. I let things bottle up until i cant stand it. Then i cut. I dont cut deep and i never do to many. I still cry some times but ive gotten to where cutting helps more.

I did stop for a while but when my friend died of cystic fibrosis, it was the only thing i could do to keep from losing it. And now im addicted once again. And i cant stop the same way i did last time.

Any advise?