After saying it over and over what I wanted to say to Jason.And tonight I had my chance to tell him everything-and I did.And it completely back fired and blew up in my face.He constantly said how he fucked up and blah blah blah in a really rude way and then goes and logs off of Facebook with the last words "Sorry if I ever bothered you".
Like really.Your gonna run away after I just told you how I felt yet again.And full blown being honest with you?! It really was going great before he said one word about HER.and then I lost all self esteem.Cause that's what girls do when they instantly hear that coming from they're ex that they still are in love with.
I probably made matters worse by even talking to him.But for a while he had my heart going..just like old times.And only he could ever do that to me.I just gotta move on..and not give a damn about the girls that are chasing after him.I just need to stay positive and find things that will get him far off my mind.!
Honesty didnt get me anywhere.
July 29th, 2011 at 08:23am