Sometimes

sometimes I think I just write poems when I can't muster up enough feeling to write a story or add a chapter. I feel so drained its almost impossible to write anything. i have my schools essay for the first day of school so i'm trying to get back into the groove of writing...even if its fiction and pointless and nobody will ever read it. (at least I hope not) so...time to go write new chapters...start a new story. I have NO idea what i'm going to write it about.

I feel like I'm losing my talents as a writer. I used to be really good, I used to be able to have any description on hand when I needed it. But nowadays it seems like I struggle for one line in a poem, and then I re-read it and its as shitty as it could be. This is really depressing me (like everything does nowadays) So I hope I can change that before school starts because I'm going into an Honors literature class that involves a lot of essay writing...ugh. That really sucks I kind of want to transfer out of it now that I know I have to read 3 books and write an essay about them. UGH. Sorry this is turning into more of a complaint lol. But I really don't wanna do it :(