fighting

i just want to die. for monthes this underlying turmoil between my parents has been boiling and brewing, and its finally reached its peak. now they are blaming one another, and even us childeren. my bff picked up his phone today only to hear me sobbing into the speaker. this is my moms second marriage, and these arguments dont hurt me because of their fighting, they are hurting me because they sound so much alike to the fights my mom had with my real father. the name calling, the blaming, they sound like an angery teenage couple and i just cant take it anymore. brian has been more of a dad to me and my siblings than my bio dad ever was to us. and i dnt know what i would do if divorce ever came into the question. i have been crying all freakin day and i just want this fighting to be over. im usually not very open with things as personal as this, but i had to get it off my chest.