Defining True Heartbreak.

Last night, I dreamt of you. You told me that you blamed me and then, you hung yourself.
I watched the whole thing.

True Heartbreak is losing your ex-fiancee. (who was also your first everything.)
True Heartbreak is knowing that you still loved him and wanted him back. (I moved)
True Heartbreak is losing him to suicide.
True Heartbreak is having constant nightmares.
True Heartbreak is living with the fact that I was 3 hours away.
True Heartbreak is waking up to our song being played on the radio.
True Heartbreak is remembering every single god-damn fucking thing you ever said to me.
True Heartbreak is knowing that I'll never be able to see you again.
True Heartbreak is knowing how fucked up your family is that I don't even know where you are buried.

Ladies and Gentleman, I hate August.

Why?

August 01, 07 - RIP MattieLove - Suicide
August 23, 10 - RIP Cam - Sucide

and as of a week ago.

August 03, 2011 - RIP Baby - Sucide.

Sorry if this is a downer. :( I just needed to vent.

<3 - ScoutF