Doubt.

Have you ever doubted yourself so much that you actually had to take a minute to look back and re-think it through. That just happened to me. I was on Youtube when I stumbled across a video called "thinspo". I clicked it, just to see what it was. Basically, it was a video about thin girls and how to be thin. "Thinsporation" or "thinspo" is a horrible thing to come across and I've never felt so bad about my body in my entire life. I realize they're supposed to help you but all that video made me want to do was starve myself, crawl in a hole and die from the humiliation of being fat. I tell people all the time that I'm not fat, but even I have doubt. It's just never been this bad before.....