Hello Mibba :)

I don't update anymore.. Hm.

Well, Lifes okay, I'm still married, still working on my diabetes ALTHOUGH I am no longer on insulin but back onto pills (Happy dance?)

I got rejected by the Welfare agency for my request to return back to school (They want to help us find jobs, But won't let us get an education so we can do so?) They said I could go back on my own, But I couldn't receive benefits to help me.

The program is called "EQ" and I was on it last year, before I quit school because I was very sick (Diabetes) And I wanted to go back this year on the same program but they won't allow me. I got my hopes up so much, Was so excited... I cried like a baby when I left the office. I always get my hopes up just to have them crushed...

But I'm okay, because I believe that once you get kicked back one step, You should always take two steps forward.

When it comes to my diet... I'm not doing so great. Sure I'm trying to cut out sugar and junk... BUT I'm not getting outside to walk, Or working around the house. I'm gone back to "Lazy" And I hate it! I'm trying so hard to get back to ME. I can do it, I know I can... I'm done it before, I can do it again.

I'm still positive, Still doing okay, I'm not "Great" but I'm okay, and right now that is good enough for me! I'm rather be okay then miserable...

I think I'd be great if I didn't have a Dilemma, I'm in love with Chris. Yes... Still... :S I've been trying to push him away, End our "friendship" but everytime I try he thinks I'm being a bad friend and that's I'm tired of him, I'm not :S I could never be! I don't want to hurt .. and he's told me he loves me in the past, and I don't want to hurt him.

I hurt him in the past, He asked if he came here, Would I leave my husband for him, I said No... and I hurt him bad. Things haven't exactly been the same since. I love them both.. and it's hard, so friggen hard! I don't know what to do.

What do you think? Is it normal to love more then one person?