The crave.

Volleyball conditioning started this Monday and I had no idea about the rude awaking I was in for.

It ended up being all about my ass getting kicked by the exercises,and all that was keeping my head in the game was emotions. Why I don't know. But as of right now I am pissed & all I wanna do is fucking spike a ball in someone's face,or violently serve the ball. I'm ready for fucking war,and I have no idea what's the cause.

Could it be that I haven't been able to hang out with Sean (my friend with benefits) or could it simply just be that I need to blow off some steam cause I'm thinking about Jason.

Like there's this feeling when someone serves the ball and I hit it just right repeatedly it gives off the same sting as a razor would on my forearms and I'm craving that feeling. I feel like lately I've just been making my way for everyone and talking to them first and I automatically feel like I'm annoying them and it's just getting to me more than it should.

Volleyball doesn't look like a passion anymore..more of a sick addiction.