And the reason is.

Okay this will be my second post obviously.. anyway I have a whole hell of a lot thats on my mind amd im gonna share it with you.. soo. Well my love life is kinda fucking confusing and fucked up. My ex I guess likes me and It scares me because my last 2 months have been fuckin dramatic and shit. mostly because theres a bunch of drama that wasnt nessasary what so ever. But I suppose its okay now. I feel like hes keeping me on edge on purpose to keep me around. I hope not because Ive put so much feeling into us. Good and bad. If he goes back to her all of it will be in vain. I wouldnt hate either of them. I would just be hurt. But the only good thing about all of this is that Ive grown up some. He even said ive changed. He remembers me as a nieve ran all over type of female. But uhh. Not anymore. Im still me just not as fucking stupid. I still really care about him. Too much. Why does that remind me a song...Soo besides all this drama and headache and lovesickness id say ive been really good and happy. Id just wish things could go my way more often than they should, but if that happened then I wouldnt be this matured up lil person iam now. shit happens for a reason.