world been flipped upside down -.-

okay so i haven't been on mibba in a long time but i have been totally distracted alot of shit has gone down in my life in a short time and im really not ready for any of it.
first a girl totally lead me on for weeks saying she likes me saying we should should go out we should hangout more all that kinda stuff then her ex comes back and in a day they are back together and she actually walked up to me and said i don't want to see or hear from you again. i was totally emotionally destroyed i had made some serious fellings for that girl but apperently she just wanted to use me. and that caused me to sprial into depression again i was just about done abusing myself but she does that and then it all started again the cutting drinking drugs burning. i mean i shouldn't have acted the way i did but i had my heart broken and i was just ready to trust people again some people i can trust but others now i know to leave alone. i got alcohal posioning and went to the hospital where the found my cuts blah blah blah short of the story my mom wants to give me away now and my dad wants to keep me but get me help and that caused another fight between them and its kinda all my fault.... well anyway just needed to get that off my chest if you have anyway to help me in anyway or want to try help me feel better go for it and hopefully it works someone out there can make me feel better

so chao for now!