Let me break it down for you.

I haven't really thought about anything..just spacing. and when I space,there's nothing going on. I just turn up the music and block out the rest of the world. Light up a cigg,and relax. It's the only time I never over think shit like I do most of the time.

I feel unorganized..even though everything is going according to plan. I made the volleyball team,I'm finally 16,finding a job,but there's something missing..Sean. And this is where I over think shit and get all emotional and write about how I wish he notice how great I can be,and how much of the world I can give to him,but I'm not gonna babble on about a fairytale.

I gotta keep it real and face reality and keep telling myself that we're just friends. Nothing else. And I gotta focus on other things,better things not be all boy crazy.

I gotta do me.