School Anxiety

So I just started my Junior year in high school & I get the ONLY anxiety. I don't have anxiety at all really, but I only get it when I have to go to school or take tests. School started on thursday, & on Wednesday, I was beyond paranoid & shaky.

I think I get this way is because I'm not exactly an A student; I fear failure & the thought of failing & not doing well, frightens me. I do feel this way during the school year but it always hits me in the beginning, around tests, & when the semester comes to an end.

I am planning on working extra hard this year, because I want a good look for colleges, but I hate feeling nervous & pressured all the time. & my mom has been getting angry with me, because I come home with a bad mood & attitude. I tell her it's just because of school, but she thinks it's because I'm around other kids... but it's because I'm terrified of failing & not getting into college & not getting anywhere in life...

I wonder if anyone else feels the way I do? it's horrible & I wish I wasn't so scared of failing. I wish I was more book smart. I'm not saying that I'm dumb, because I do have common sense & I know a lot that many of my peers don't know, but when it comes to testing & learning so much, I'm horrible... I also have trouble focusing.

I just hope I do well & I hope I grow out of this fear by the time I get to college...