Advice?

I have done so many bad things in my life and im regret everyone of them. I hate my life and im sick of living with this shit. Im fed up with people shit, i get bullied everyday at school, i have basically gone into break down mode. My life is terrible.

My mum always sides with my brother and then when i get angry and stom out, the immatate me and mum laughs at my brother. I dont want to do this anymore. I have had enough.

The only thing that gets me through the day is my best friend Sharni, knowone knows how much she means to me, nor does she, she is amazing, she is like a sister to me, she is so nice and she's always there for me.

Why does my life have to be so hard?

I just wish i could be happy for once. I really want to go back to being a kid again, i want to take back every bad thing i have done and everything that i regret, i just wanna be happy again, but its so hard.

Sometimes i tell myself im fat and ugly only because my brother told me i am, i dont know what to do and i find it hard to talk to my mum.

FML, what am i gonna do?

xo.