feel shit less and pouring my eyes out

Feeling shit less pouring my eyes out why mom now you fanily made me give up on trying to make this work you known what fuck im. Done now im feeled with tears just pouring and been waiting to come out you've always told me no one loved me well you know what I don't care im use to it now we've never been close you dident raise me there is no hope at all im done with you all you do is make me feel insecure about myself every day you just have to talk about my body there's no end you feel me rage screaming to come out I can't wait for the day I fanily snap all I want is someone to talk to I had a person once my great grandmother but she is dead now from cancer do you know how it feels to no. That was the only person who truly loved you no matter what and to know you'll never be loved like that again I don't see why you keep pushing me mom after I am your only child you've pushed me to I stopped loving you at the age of 6 I truly realized it at 8 I use to wonder why mommy would treat me like this beat me yell every day. I realized I will only have myself not even so called family will be there and not to let anyone break me I always believe what don't kill you make you stronger so give it all you got mom just remember im your only child and you all ready screwed up on my child hood and there's only 4 more years to im 18 oh I can't wait to that day I will leave this place and move far away to the east coast so all im worked about now is my grades and saving up money for that day and once im 18 don't think you'll see me