sadness

i know that after u lose someone u r to move on and not think about it much but i cant help it!!!! every day i think about what it would be like if we still had Ben and Brandon. i know it would be a lot different in my hometown thats for sure!!!! but i guess i cant take it back of what happened to them!!! but i wish someone or something could have stoped them!!!! when someone dies its so hard for every one to let go!!! i feel really bad for the families who lost Ben and Brandon, i'm still friends with Brandon's and Ben's families and i see how they are having a hard time letting go. its been 4 years now that we lost Brandon, and every time i talk/ see Jess his sister i can see the sadness in her eyes, even though she doesn't say anything about it i know that she misses him. and Brandon will never met his neice (i know i spelt it wrong but i dont care). and with Ben he will never know the kind of men his son will grow up to be!!!! and he will never know what his younger sister will be like when she's older!! i just wish things like this would never happen, but i guess everytthing has a reason.