more sadness

every time i try not to think about it, it all ways comes rushing back then i would brake out crying that happens to Rose to. we where at a party together and we both looked at each other b/c we both knew what each other was thinking than we fell into each others arms balling our eyes out. i know it may sound like im making this up but im not this is a true story ask any one from where i live! if u never lost anyone and tell someone u know how hard it its u dont know!!!! its a lot harder then u know!!!!! i hate it!!!!! i wish this sadness would go away or i wish something will come up and make me stop thinking about this.