biggest regret ever...

while i was lying on my bed..and listening to the FOB music on my laptop beside
me..I got headache due to some colds..and I got a little dose of sleep..then I
dreamed of "HIM"..his not God okay..but my crush..my firstlove...I got many crushes
on my highschool days..but he is the only one who makes my head insane..so is it
love?
on my short dream...i just saw his face..everywhere!!..the days were i'm in the
school(his my classmate alright)...and in the dream it includes "him" just playing
jokes on me..a total flashback..i woke up of my short slumber..and i was like.."what the heck?!..why him again?!"
i was trying to forget him already..its been like..what? two years?..since the day i
transferred to another school..
i was just staring in thin air..and flashback of me and him once again on my
mind..*damn*

"we were in the classroom..and he was sitting next beside me..he didn't know I that
I like him..I treated him oppositely to hide my feelings..I act snobbish if ever he
teases me..but deep inside i'm happy..*weird*
then a hard rain comes..all of us just stare at the window..while or proffessor was
lecturing..he's face was like so dissapointed..he ask our fellow classmate beside
him if he has an umbrella..and he said no..then he points at me and said.."maybe
karsten has"...he was like "oh yeah..umm..I know that your way home is the same as
mine right?..and i was like "yeahhh??..."..and he said "okay then,i'm gonna go with
you then..BUT wait!your way is??..he didn't listen..he just flashes a smile at
me..and looks back at our proffessor..I never got to argue with that,didn't been
able to say no..but that was the happiest day of my life..or is it?...I was waiting
for him outside holding my umbrella..i waited for him for like 10 min. then I saw my
classmate sheela and ask her where he is..she told me he has gone home..with our
other classmate...*darn him*...I just give a weak smile and the left school...I was
all blank inside while i was walking...good thing is I never got hit by a car while
crossing..

up until now i still remember that day..and my biggest regret is that "I never got
to tell him that I like him...or even just a hint"..Now i transfer to another
school..never been able to see him...i just want to end this,tell him how i
feel..just have peace on my mind..maybe he has a girlfriend already...it will never
surprise me because his handsome,kind..has good sense of humor..my ideal guy..

and now i'm hearing this song.."only reminds me of you"by mymp
and its driving me nuts...i just wanna forget him...