The end(my suicide letter, i wrote like 3 years ago, i never kild myself obviously)

alright . im going to deactivate from life. although i have lied about alot of things id hope you'd forgive me, i cant possibly die knowing you hate me. i cant tell you my story for you'd only think that was lies to. i never lied mothers . and after sunday your wish for me to die or be dead, will come true. i'll be in hell like you wanted. thankyou for showing me what was real, yes im a lier, and my father wont even speak to me. yes im a cheap whore. and a big lier. yes im 11. but atleast you can be satisfied knowing i will know longer be on the same earth as you. bye , it has been very real
i did this for you, and everyone else. you will be happyier this way. i wont be able to harm you with my unworthyness. hopefully one day you will think of me and think i wasnt so bad. but maybe when you finish reading this, you will feel relieved. please, dont keep me in your memrie, im not worth that either

{this was written 3 years ago, when i felt i could no longer cont. liveing. i am in therapy now, and have decided against killing myself, thanks to some of my dear friends and family}