changes....

im listening to changes by blck sabbath and it made me realize how much shit happened these passed 2 years. i know no one is going to read this, but i dont care. i dont know it feels like after the surgery i lost who i was....completely. there were even times i had wished i didnt make it out of the operasting room. i had been dying before, and it had hert so bad, but that didnt seem to matter. but this year is so much different.anyone who knows me knows why this year was so bad. and i found God and people who love me through it all. i was sitting there this morning on my way to church thinking, my God, youve given me so much. it truly brings me to tears. it makes it all worth it. and if anyone ever wants to ask about my medical shit its ok dont be scared
xxx