God what do I do? And that's a prayer as much as a moan.
I really don't know what to do. I'm a little lost. Alright I'm more than a little lost. Around 11 tonight I have to call my step-dad and tell him if I want him to stay in Texas or go back up to Montana.
And I feel like I'm screwed either way that I choose.
I really like it down here in Texas. Sure I have no family which is a big bummer, but I have been making new friends too. I have a pretty good job too. I mean, I don't love it but I make more than minimum wage which is saying something right?
Then you have Montana. Most of my family is there and there are plenty of people who would let me live with them until I could find my own apartment and that way I also wouldn't be upsetting anyone that is there because I'm not.
And what am I supposed to do? If I stay I basically tell them that I don't care but if I go, am I doing it because I want to or because I have been guilted into it?