I Just Don't Know.

Now, I just can't tell the difference between me actually liking someone and me wanting them to like me. Yeah, tongue twister.

Well, I like this ginger kid. I continued to call him (let's assume his first name is Danny) Danny Ginger because there were too many kids with the same name as him. But, I liked him the first time I laid eyes on him. The instant I saw him, I thought, damn, he's really attractive. But I was taken and my friend first began to like him.

Now I feel like I'm a fake bitch when I'm around him because I'm trying to be like her, unintentionally. He likes her but he said she's too "immature." He still talks to her, writes her notes, etc. Meanwhile, he's texting me calling me 'hun' and how he just loves how I think (when I don't act like her).

LIKE F-CK MAN. Can you just come out and tell me whether or not you plan to date me so I know if I'm wasting my time or not?

I don't like guys often. (Liking them is different then finding them attractive in my book, by the way.) When I do, I infest all of myself in them. I wait for their text, call, smile, wave, every goddamn day.

I should probably stop that.