Soo lost.

Dear Journal,

There are days when I have my ups and Days when I have my downs. I just can’t stop feeling guilty for what happened when I was seven. I can’t even look my mom in the eyeballs sometimes. I want to move on from it, but how?
Sometimes I feel so lost.

Plus,
I'm So stressed out . Everytime i turn around; My mom and i argue. We literally argue everyday. It's sad really. I just can't wait to get out of that house for good . Two more years.. She puts me down constantly and it make me sick to my stomach sometimes. I just feel like she doesn't know me and she does'nt understand me. I'm just the screw up older daughter anyway. Can't Seem to do anything right according to her.