More Unfinished Poems

*1993*
Back in 1993
before all this hell happened because of me

When the days were sunner
and mommy was younger

When mom and dad were in love
back when nothing could come between them
there first son was two, and man did they love him

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*Untitled*
You wouldnt belive how many days
suicide was the only thing on my mind

Your wouldnt believe the days i thought
would be my last

An you wouldnt believe the amount
of nights it almost was

Those nights when i was sure
the next day would never there

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*Help....*
People always saying not to keep in all bottled up inside
they wouldnt imagine all the things on my mind

I keep all the pain to myself
like those tiny voices in my head crying out for someones help

You cant see it, but im shatterted inside
but none of that will ever matter

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*Untitled*
Tired of hiding from all the pain
scares me knowing it will always be there
two doors in my life
one to live my life full out
an one to my death and doubt

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*Untitled*
I look in this mirror, this imagine stares back at me
she looks so ugly, so stupid, so fat

I hate this mirror
death follows me around, everyday getting nearer

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*Untitled*
I thought as you got closer to me
you would see my true beauty

But now i know those were all lies
i was always meant to cry
i know now you wished i would just die

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Wrote this about having to stand up in class to speak an how i feel.
*Another Day*
Another day

Another day i feared the worse
all there eyes and words

staring upon me
waiting for me

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*Untitled*
My hopeful nights
thinking things are now alright
The rage returns
my hopelessness comes back
One word changes me
why wont osmeone save me
I keep waiting
no one ever comes