As you all have known, or if you have read my journal called "Change in the win..." I feel as if my heart is in a block of ice. Not that I miss my ex, but that I feel like that people out there are only my friends and that I will never find the one I love. Since I broke up with my ex, I have had a few crushes and they are all younger than me but I've only known them for a short time, actually since August...
Sometimes I wonder if happily ever after really does exsist. Sometimes I doubt myself and I keep myself wandering in darkness. I see a flower sitting in front of me. A white rose to be specific. I see that the rose is my life and all the petals are my friends. They are big and bright and shining within the water that I pour onto it but I see one petal is falling. It lands on the table and suddenly turns black. What is happening?
I'm not saying that my heart is wanting to be in a relationship again or that I'm losing a friend but it feels as if I'm either 1. missing something or 2. someone...
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