Validation

I am constantly feeling the need to be alone, with an underlying feeling of loneliness clashing with it.
I want to be happy and I want to try to be happy, but something is holding me back from doing so. I want to be a happy, functioning person. My depression and anxiety are keeping me back from enjoying people and things I love.
I want to get better for Katie, Dallan, Chris, everyone. Especially Katie.
I love her.

I want happiness but it won't seem to come.

I'm afraid that one day everything will change, but I'll be left behind because my depression will hold me back from joining in.