I'm Tired of This

I can't compete with this world anymore. I try so hard at everything I do, but I'm never good enough. I'm so incomplete in so many ways and have nothing to fill that emptiness with. I'm tired. But i can't sleep. I can't eat. I miss those days when I ate and thought nothing of it. But now, I just can't. I miss when people actually had faith in me, cared about me.

My mother just told me she can't wait until I kill myself. She also told me I was an ugly worthless piece of sh*t. Why do I try so hard for people to break me down? Is anyone listening? Why do I feel invisible? I don't get very much attention, but when I do it's always negative attention.

I'm going to say this again. I'm tired. I'm tired of life. I want to sleep. I can't. I don't want to wake up. Ever. I know these are serious words, but I mean them. Nobody cares.