Meh

I just completely screwed up one of my best relationships. I tried to make a simple joke, and it got turned against me.The last person in th world I would ever want mad at me is. Yes, she was already in a bad mood about other things, but I apparently made it all worse. I cried over it, which is something I rarely do over things like this. But I did. I don't know what I'm going to say in this stupid thing, nothing I can say really. I mean, I feel like a horrible person and an even worse friend. Have some stuff to do today, probably wont get done because of my mood. I thought I was done being severely depressed, guess not. It's always my fault too. I'm an idiot, I don't know when to shut up. I say the wrong thing, to the wrong people, at the wrong time. Maybe I'll go into hiding for a while, then I can only screw up my life and that's hard to do right now. Pretty screwed up already. Whatever. If you somehow, someway find this and see this... I hope you know how truly horrible I feel right now. Seriously, I love you and hate this. Hopefully this doesn't last long, I can't handle this.