I feel like I'm back in Middle School.

It's awful.

I start school tomorrow. I am only slightly terrified. Hey I did French school once right? I can so do it again. Only this time lets have a whole lot less soul crushing loneliness please?

Dear God. I even sound like an angsty middle schooler. There something about the whole thing- being in place where I barely speak the language that makes be feel about 12 and about 3 inches tall.

And its stupid. I know its stupid- but I'm in the same situation I was then.

I feel like I've started 7th grade all over again and am just a little lost person with no real sense of self or what ever.

And it doesn't help I am starting a new school in the middle of November either.

And that terrifying. I was a angst little bugger of child in middle school. I don't want to be that person.

Really I just want it to go well. I want to make friends. People to just chill and listen to music with.

and so wish me luck while I freak out and dither around like an idiot.

pleasepleasepleaspleasletthisgookayaftertwomonthsofbadineedsomethingtogowell