My True Feelings

I take it all back.. I hate him. Can someone please share with me why I'm not good enough.. what she has that I don't have? What makes me the second pick? I would like to know, Why she's so perfect, Why shes all you think about anymore.. Remember when that was me? Remember when you said that it would always be me, and there would never be anymore like me? Hah, well I knew that was never true.. I always knew I would turn into nothing.. but next time please, when I pour my heart out to you, I would atleast like a small response.. like,"Don't talk to me, I never want to see you again" or "I don't care I hate you now." .. I mean something so I know that you care enough to atleast to let me know your true feelings... I just never thought it would end like this.. With us never talking ever.. again. I hate this. I wish I never met you, I wish I never sent you that message.. I wish that I never fell in love with you. I wish you never broke my heart. </3
I can't help but love you. I can't help but the think you are the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen.. I can't help but to think about you everyday.. I know that's bad but I can't help it! I really don't understand why shes so fucking great!!! I just want to talk! I know you are annoyed with me and you never want to talk to me ever ever EVER again and thats cool but I just want you to answer some questions for me first.. like why aren't I good enough. What she has I don't.. How can you just forget everything we had and drop it all for her..? how could this happen...? How did we let this happen.... How?
All I know is that I miss you, but I hate you, and I love you, but I want to kill you, and I want to hug you, but cry at the thought of you, all at the same time.. </3