I just don't know what to do anymore.

The past two days, I’ve been really sick. I have no energy. I’m sore all over. My back and neck feel like they’re on fire. I’m tired. I can’t sleep. I kind of just want to die.

I feel like I’m losing the battle with my disease. I try so, so hard to fight back and to not let it take over, but when it gets bad like this, it’s like it’s taunting me, letting me know that it still has the upper hand and I’m not in control. No matter how hard I try, I will never be able to get rid of this disease. It’s stuck in me, and day by day, it’s breaking me down.

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I hate being sick, but I can’t win.
November 16th, 2011 at 12:39am