nothing gets better does it?

gooooosh you guys.

so, my dad had another heart attack and was told he may not live long... just great.
my mom is falling apart.
and i have no one.
this is killing me,
but i have to be strong for my mom, sister and 3 lil brothers,
god, when is anything gonna change?
i've NEVER had it easy
i've never been happy
i have to act ok
i have no one to talk to about this
none of my friends care
or my boyfriend
i'm losing my mind
i dont see the point in living
and im losing everything i have to live for,