I'm having one of those nights

when I'm just sad for no reason
well i did read some sad stuff
but before that I read a happy story
i don't know but tonight is just one of those sad nights
where you just realize how lonely you are
(now don't get me wrong Halloween, you're my baby
but you're also a dog that doesn't like being cuddled)
yes I just referenced my dog in my late night lonely journal
that no one will comment

on with the show
anyone else have those nights when you realize how lonely you are?
I've got to find me a man
Pronto
ASAP
maybe I'll put that on my Christmas list ahahaha

this is turning into one of my weird mental ramblings no one can keep up with
if you've stuck with me this far I congratulate you
no one ever understands my train of thought

anyways
I have an essay due tomorrow I haven't started writing
tomorrow is a minimum day
fuck my life
I'll have to wake up later to start writing it
the thing is my school doesn't hold lunch on a minimum day
so there's no break to sit and write it
freaking crap
screw my life

I'm in my school's advanced choir and
my concert is in 3 weeks
I really want to lose weight so I look nice in my dress
cross your fingers for me
and wish me luck
though let's hope I don't need it
I just want to look nice