best and worst day of my life (warning: this journal contains ranting)

okay so for the first time in the history of my life
my family didn't argue on a big holiday like today
usually there's a fight
and someone ends up angry
and avoiding a family member
you get the idea, there's always fighting

but this time everyone was calm and chill
and I loved it

it was a really good day
and my best friend and I told each other how
grateful we are to have each other in our lives
and just yeah

and i don't care if people think it's wrong
or immoral
but I love her, I really do

and then she says she doesn't want
a relationship with me because she doesn't want to
risk losing what we have

and just freaking patooty
I love her
like a lot
and then she goes and just shreds any hope that
I had of being with her

okay yes that's very dramatic, my teenage heart is talking
ignore it
I do think I have a chance
it's small
very small
but I'll take it

so there's my teenage frustrations of the day
I just needed someone to vent to
I can't go to my other best friend cause I'm pretty sure
she has a thing for me
and it'd be cruel if I went to her to vent on something
like that

welp, hope everyone had a great holiday