Am I depressed?

I'm actually quite concerned now.

I cry alot. Like alot. Even when I've had a fairly normal day, I might come home and have a little cry.

I even cry really bad when I see something that makes me happy. Like the smallest thing, I'll cry asif I'll never be happy. I get jelous.

Last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I was so tired, but my mind was distracted. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks and soaked my pillow. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't drift off. I decided then to just give up and spent the rest of the night hanging out of my bedroom window, gazing into the darkness and smoking cigarrettes.

This morning I was due to go to work. I had a few moments of sleep before my alarm went off but myy eyes were so heavy and the thought of going to work was just awful. I called in sick, and now it's 13:20 and I'm still in bed,

I've cried alot again today, but it' been an awful sob. I've been crying so hard someone would think I'd lost a love one. I cry so hard that I question my sanity. What the f*ck am I crying about? What is wrong with me?

I cant figure myself out and I'm scared.

This happens all the time. I have noone to talk to. My friends think I'm weird.