The good kid

I've always been the good girl in my family. The one whos going to college, gets good grades , the innocent one. The virgin. I'm sick of being the one who's being remInded of my morals. I made the choice to wait til my wedding night to have sex but now everybody exspects it & I'm constantly reminded to be somebody in life but I just want to be me that's all. I just don't knw anymore what should I do? Any thoughts? & the kicker is I have a disability & they say I'm normal but how is this normal? It's not!