Crush

I've beenstalking crushing on someone for about 2 and half years. It's so pathetic. But he works in the same office building as me, and I sometimes see him when I'm outside smoking a cigarette. He smokes too, which I love.

We always say hello to each other, and then we kind of akwardly stand there in silence, puffing away on our cigs.

This has been going on for almost three years, and the last time I actually plucked up the courage to have a conversation with him was around this time last year. Otherwise I normally just stand there frozen, my stomach doing backflips, not being able to actually find the words to speak.

It's crazy. I never feel this way.. Only when I am around him.

I want to talk to him, but I have no idea what to say!