Again?

I never would've thought that you would come back into my life like you have. After everything I did to you, you're still willing to even talk to me, which is astonishing. Not that it's a bad thing. And part of me wants to beg for you back, again, and another part of me just wants to ask questions that you'll never answer. Yes, I'm scared. But i can't do it. I want to SO bad, but I can't. I made a commitment and I'm going to stick to it. It's nothing against you, I just don't want to go through that whole rigamarole of trickery and deception again.