a too long don't read notice here:
my friend J got into a fight with his father (family in general) and i just feel really shitty. i feel like i should help the guy but he doesn't feel too good and in the beginning he asked me to go away (nicely). later he talked to me more about it but i didn't know how to respond
maybe I should ignore him for his better but...
i know he spends a shitload of money, gets blitzed (high as f-ck), and gets home late. his parents know he smokes weed and have tried to run drug tests on him.......he's a genius.
but i really know nothing of this guy actually. I've only seriously talked to him today because he has close friends who are my friends too....but we got close after a period of time (which probably won't last too long) he's not a dick and he's actually a pretty nice, sweet guy
I mean should I just ignore him and leave him alone like he asked me to in the beginning? But I feel pretty guilty because I'm the reason he came back home late again...He told me he doesn't really mind and that he's happy to be chilling with me/doing what I'd like but I felt bad...plus he asked me to get off my train and wait with him until his train came, but i told him that was impossible because i had to get home where my dad was waiting for me...and as I left the station, I felt like i missed a giant opportunity to really know this guy more and i felt like a dick for just leaving him there when he went all the way to this side of new york city to go home with me when he's supposed to be on the opposite....plus he paid 15 dollars for his ticket on my train!!!!! ugh
and on the topic of drugs....today he and this guy P were selling drugs to each other and i felt really tempted and curious to try drugs. people have always told me to experiment with at least pot but it feels weird and i'd like to know what experiences people have had with drugs. it's not really a peer pressure concern for me because they're actually great guys who wouldn't force me or pressure me into doing drugs but just wondering....i feel like drugs will f-ck me up. i mean P was talking about how he took e (ecstasy), had sex with a girl, and it was the best orgasm he ever had. i mean other people have telling me different, that ecstasy with f-ck you up but gahhhhhhh HIGH SCHOOL
conversation:
1: hi J
it's me shim
i'm sorry i made you feel shitty
2: What?
1: i was messing with you
2: It wasn't you.
1: it was.
2: It was my dad.
Can we not talk about this?
Please?
1: sure
2: I'm thinking about running away right now
1: do you mind if i ask
2: so yeah can we not talk right now...
1: oh whoops.
well don't
see you someday
2: someday?
...
1: cheer up homie~
2: no
i can't
this is serious.
Sylvia is mean you're right.
1: are you comfortable with telling me what happened or not
i guess she's insensitive and can't read situations...idk she thinks shes funny which can offend people
but anyways...i hope the situation between you and your dad get better. i can't do anything about it but i can listen if you need some help man. don't do crazy shit you're gonna regret later. think before you do anything ok.
2: thanks.
:)
my dad bashed stuff and yeah
It's complicated
1: are you still thinking of running away
2: yeah
probably tomorrow
1: has your dad calmed down
2: yeah
but I haven't
I'm crying up a frenzy
1: i don't know him personally but i'm pretty sure he just went raging
2: No
He's usually supercalm
1: did some apologies happen
cry it out though
it feels nice
2: no
it doesn't
1: it clears your head. or take a walk.
2: i'm skypign with one of my best friends
1: idk. just please don't do something like running away.
2: I'm just sad
1: just tell them you need to chill a bit before you come back home then.
everybody's sad once in a while. talk it out with your friend or do something new tomorrow alright?
see you J. and if it shit's complicated or you feel stressed just tell me, yeah?
sorry if i'm not much help or being annoying haha. i'm just concerned man
2: No
LOL
Okay :)
don't worry about me
you're a sweetheart
but don't worry about me
I'll get through.
i really need advice; am i doing the wrong thing? am i being weird and anal-retentive about it? drugs ok?
worried.....i really need advice
December 3rd, 2011 at 08:04am