F****kc

My pander eyes scare me.
It scares me to think that i have more mascara and eyeliner on my index finger than i do on my eyes (plural).
is it wrong to make out with a friend when you are both drunk and he wants you too and then leave the room and make out with his ex girl friend when you leave the room cause she wants too then go back to him? all when its his bros 21st?

What is wrong with me? I feel like a whore - but I've slept with neither. i want to make their relationship better but she's in love with my older sister... yet had a sexual relationship with me? he wants her back; yet kisses me?

So I'm confused and i have no idea.
I am way over my head and all i can do is cry and cry and cry.

All I want is advice a to know if I'm not alone or if i am what i feared.

I want what i don't get - strangers who don't know me to not be afraid to tell me what they think.