Yarghhhh there's this guy J i've been talking to a while now
he's so adorable and cute. he may not be the most good looking guy around but i love his acne around his mouth and the way he gets excited when he talks about something he likes. i heard he used to be a dick but he's tried to change and he's lovely
he plays the guitar for me and sings to me and (lol) rap, but even if he sucks it doesn't matter because he puts effort into it
i find his thing for old school rap cute and tryhard-shly adorable
idk everyone calls him a tryhard and a herb because he uses less drugs than he says he does. countless people from his school plus his ex-girlfriend/my best friend tell me not to hang out with him, but honestly I really don't care about what they call him
no matter what he does he's such a sweet kid to me...
i'm those weird neurotic kids who take everything seriously.
-so when he said i was exactly like his ex-girlfriend I didn't know whether to think "yay!" or "nay...".
-when he said he wanted to hug me i was pretty happy inside
-plus he calls me cute...makes me happy
-and he also keeps asking why i'm so nice to him and why i am so nice in general
we trade music and pictures of cute friends LOL
i'm into him, but i doubt he likes me back; i'm not disappointed but i would be really happy if we got closer and he started to like me~~~ hehehehehee
the upsetting thing is when we talk to each other about stuff we think about he called me desperate (which i know i am because i'm pretty superficial and I WANT A SIGNIFICANT OTHER SO BAEEEED)
from that i just hope he doesn't think of me negatively
idk i think he thinks of me as a kid brother or sister who needs guidance from the way he talks to me
plus when we talk about girlfriends/boyfriends i feel like he doesn't get the hint that i dig him a lot...but why would he have the reason to?
and he keeps telling me to just wait because i will find a person i will really like someday
^temporarily broke my heart because that implies....lol
and also he's had so many girlfriends it makes me really self-conscious and makes me think I have no chance...
ugh maybe i just like him because he boosts my ego so much but i genuinely like him a lot and i get excited to talk to him. puppy luv
tomorrow we're going ice-skating and he's gonna introduce me to his friends
i feel like such a creepy schoolgirl who likes her teachers LOL but i just wanted to get that feeling out
i'm such a fuggin creep
have you guys had this fling before? should i f-ck it and tell him i dig him a lot? or should i keep quiet until i'm positively sure he likes me toooooo
pure puppy love
December 5th, 2011 at 05:13am