have you ever..?

Have you ever wanted to do something but just couldn't bring yourself to actually do it? Well, I'm in one of those predicaments. I won't say exactly what for fear of it getting out, BUT I will say that it involves a certain female counterpart and another female in which i had a relationship with but totally screwed it up. I want to do it. But at the same time, I don't. What if i just end up making another huge mistake and regret it for the rest of my life? I don't know. Maybe I'm just a wuss that can't make up his mind...