I'm dreading Christmas. Oh and Zoee's dad is really, really going to kill me this time

Christmas is usually a great time for me. I've been in a kind of off mood lately though and yesterday being the one year anniversary of my friend's death didn't do much for me. I hope it's gonna be nice though. I don't know why I'm feeling like this

Anyways I was with Zoee yesterday and helped me with everything. Her dad was aware of the circumstances and everything and she headed home around 9:30. Then I was just watching some TV around 11 when she called the house. She asked if she could come over and I said yes and when she got here, she had walked because she didn't want her dad to know so he couldn't drive her and he was asleep too. She was really upset because I guess he was being a jerk about seeing me and that I shouldn't have brought her mood down by talking about my friend

She felt really bad about it even thought it wasn't her fault. She actually stayed the night, not on purpose, we were laying down and fell asleep. My mom thankfully brought her home, I went with her so I could talk to her dad and hopefully explain myself to him so she wouldn't be in so much trouble, but he wasn't even awake. She practically shoved me out the door lol she didn't want me talking to him in case he didn't wake up in the middle of the night and never knew she was gone

Her step mom likes me though....that's a little better.