Fake

Fake smiles, the laughter is a lie, I hide the pain, I make my eyes shine, I hide the tears, I don't cry anymore, I push it all back inside, I never tell a soul, I never let out my tears, I don't ever cry, I never tell people my problems, No one knows how I feel, and no one tries to help, I fake my smiles, I fake it all, I fake being happy, I fake my "good" life, I fake everything, that's just me. All you know is the fake me.
What am I really?
A whore, an annoying, dumb whore, a stupid slut, an emo bitch, an emotional wreck, life's little mistake, the girl who always complains, a bitch, the girl who always yells and starts shit, a liar a cheater, a sloppy little girl, a heart made of cold black stone, I'm a whore, I hurt inside and I hate myself, I'm a stupid whore, a retarded little bitch, an annoying little fuck, you wish I'd die, that's what you tell me, I ruined everything we had, I destroyed it, I killed it, I learn who I am from you, but I'll fake that it doesn't phase me, I'll fake that it doesn't destroy me inside, I'll fake that it doesn't shape me, I'll fake that I don't cry, or cut over your words, I'll fake it until I can't take it anymore, and that knife finally cuts my throat. I'll fake it til my last goodbye.