The normal.

This is just a journal about the normal usual thing a seventeen year old journals about, but before I go on, let me set something straight for both you and I. I do not love him. I do not love him. I do not love him. I love him as one of my greatest friends that I can rely on, but not in the I want to be with your forever love. I told myself I was starting to for a little while, but I really don't. It hurts that we are just friends with benefits, but at the same time I wouldn't want more. We live too far away. If we lived close, it would be a different story. I would never do this to me. It would be so wrong if we lived in the same town, but we don't. We are both going off to college too so why would we start something? I do not want to go into college with a relationship. I am following the advice of many that say don't do it. Well, I just thought I would all let you know that I have come to the conclusion that I do not love him and it is freeing. I just want to be in love with them, but I'm not. I just lurve him. That's all!