Control.

I cut my own hair. I tell everyone it's because I don't trust hairdessers but really it's because I feel it's one of the only things in my life that I can fully control. I can cut it as short as I like or grow it as long as I like. This probably seems really stupid to anyone else but to me it is so much more than just cutting my hair. It's symbolic. Me cutting my hair is the same reason why some people develop anorexia; that feeling of complete control. Now, I'm not comparing myself to a serious condition I'm just trying to make sense of it outloud. Beauty, in general, is completely adjustable and I think that is the most beautiful thing about it. Being able to change my look constantly excites me. To me, it's not about what other people think of my look, it's the actual molding, the creation of this fickle element is a lot deeper than most people imply.