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Well, I just realized that school really is a complete hell.
I've been just ready to jump out of a window all this week.
Like, I've never felt this depressed around Christmas before.
But today was my last day before vacation.
So I said f*ck it, and skipped. Honestly, who cares, we'e not doing anything anyway.
And I'm just so relieved and happy. Well, not at the moment, but in general.
I just cannot take being around so many people every single day.
Having to interact with and put on a fake smile for people I want to push off a motherf*cking cliff every single day.
I just wish I were home-schooled.
Like, school just makes me so miserable. Being around so many people every day just drains me.
I know I wouldn't have any of the friends I do now if I were home-schooled...and I know this is horrible, but I think it would be worth it.
Don't get me wrong, I care about my friends.
I just...I don't know.
And being home-schooled apparently causes you to have no social skills at all, you don't know how to interact with people.
That's kind of already how I am, so it wouldn't make much difference.
Like, I cannot talk to people. I literally have no idea how to interact with others. I ramble, I stutter, I speak barely above a whisper, and sometimes I can't even talk at all. Sometimes my throat just closes and I can't speak and I'm called a freak and a mute.
I'm a mute because I don't talk to you? How arrogant.
I'm just...going to bed.
Here, I'll put this gif in here to make it seem like I'm happy and carefree.
