I know my trigger.....

I know what triggers me...to cut my self......

Reason one racist and mean comments about my weight or look..... Yes I know I'm fat and I'm not pretty but u don't have to state that I'm self confidence is rock bottom already.

Reason two I get into fights easily meanly to protect friends or trying to stop them then getting involved. Or sill arguments with my parents.

Reason three this is the mean reason why is because of the man I have to call father... He is a self arrogant git. Who has told me is doesn't like me prefers my older sister as she is the perfect child... We fight every second day or he comment about my outfits saying I'm to gothic or too slutty. He always says I'm being childish and I should grow up. I have recently started supposedly giving him cheek so when u do I get slapped! I have ran away a few times because of him but I figured out that it wasn't as affective. I'm don't like him and he knows it.

It maybe Christmas eve but that didn't stop him shouting at me when my mum and sister left. "you're so childish grow up you little idiot" "you should be like your sister studing and no out of school activities. She is the best daughter I could ever have...."

Merry Christmas you old man guess what your getting this year! :) a bag of coal(truth)..........