Is this all hopeless or am I going mad?

Is this all hopeless or am I going mad?
It's like the constant taste of pepper on my tongue. Maybe, for once, it would be nice to taste some jelly and trifle.
I often think that my taste buds aren't developed yet, but I can still taste that pepper.
I've tried breath freshener but it just makes me feel sick.
I have shoved the sweet stuff down my throat, but I just appear bulimic when I gag it all up again.
I try to laugh it all away and get rid of the taste by telling myself to stop being so pathetic. But the pepper gets stronger.

See if you can understand what I'm talking about; I hardly understand myself!
;)