My Own Mind

I'm a confident person- standing up for myself and others, speaking my mind, dancing or falling in public but laughing it off, thinking of good comebacks at the right moment, staring back at others when they stare at me, starting conversations with strangers. I don't let ANYONE or ANYTHING bring me down.
Anyone, that is, except myself.
Does that make sense? Having confidence but being insecure at the same time.
Someone at school calls me a fatass. Thanks for the compliment- at least I have an ass at all. :D
A voice in my head calls me a fatass. I'll drown in the fucking insecurity all night.
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Why can't I love myself? Why can't I see the beauty in me that others see? If beauty really IS in the eye of the beholder, then I want new eyes. Sure- and not to sound vain- there are days where I think I'm beautiful, but the days where I DON'T think that, outnumber the rest. It's terrible; it's heartbreaking. If I don't love myself...then who will? No one likes a girl that thinks so lowly of herself.
Say whatever you want to me. I'll laugh in your face.
My mind is the only voice that gets to me.