I don't know how to act happy today. I quit my meds cold turkey, like I wasn't supposed to. I go see a psychiatrist soon, but I'm not sure how I want to handle this. I want it gone like it was.
I'm tired of being seen as a burden. I'm sorry I can't clean the house spotless 24/7. I hold down a job and keep my grades at a solid 4.0. I am only here for 4 more months and you know what? Shit like this makes me wish it was today. I have a mental illness so don't get in my ass when I'm just NOT okay. I'm not gone all the time having a grand ole time- IM WORKING MY ASS OFF. it's not all fun and games, it's hard work. And you don't understand that I am abused at home. No there are no bruises, but it sucks wanting to either drag a razor through your wrist or just off yourself completely all the time. My girlfriend is pretty much my only sanity half the time, and I'm terrified of scaring her off.
No. I'm not ok. No. I'm not going to smile and pretend I am. Sorry. But this is what you're stuck with.